The Itch To Do Something Greater

So maybe it is not to do something greater but is to do something that my heart will be in. I always believed if you are going to spend eight hours or more at a place where your earn your “living” then you should be enjoying it.
I have worked at the same place for 10 years. And lately I have been feeling a heaviness, the type where my legs feel that they are filled with cement and
strong winds are pushing me down. I still mange to walk into my work place but a heaviness sets in.
It is the stagnation, the daily grind of the expected.
I’m about ready to start screaming.

In my past work experience, I have worked in non-profits dealing with education and art. I miss it. And now given the latest punch to non-profits. I feel a tinge of sadness and disgust. Let’s cut back more on art and music.. sigh. But that won’t deter me from finding something that I love doing.
The search will start and continue.

I have been very lucky in these times that I still have a job. I have received raises and bonuses. I’m able to put food on the table and pay my bills. I apologize if this post comes off as being ungrateful in a time when many are having financial difficulties due to the lack of jobs in this country.

What I’m trying to get across is that everyone should be able to find their own niche in the world, love doing it and be able to make a comfortable living from it. It comes from having pride in your work. I don’t care if someone is a waitress or engineer. As long as they “love” doing what they do. I have the urge to move on to do something that I love, and in my search, be able to contribute something that will make me smile at the end of the day.